Strength

When I called, you answered me; you built up strength within me. -Psalm 138:3

On the way to work this morning, I felt a certain heaviness within.. a feeling I have grown familiar with already. These are the times when my head is plagued with "I should've" thoughts and the usual "what ifs." I know them all too well now.

Though I acknowledged the feeling, I resisted the urge to let the heavy feeling win my day. I texted Rye about it and he made me say his all-time "go to" prayer repeatedly "Jesus, Son of the Living God, have mercy on me, a sinner." As I walked the steps leading to the school, I prayed the Prayer to Take Authority, which I have memorized from Mommy and Daddy's early BLD days. We used to recite this prayer in the car every time we traveled. Never realized the value of such a powerful prayer until recently. Never been a fan of canned prayers but believe me, whenever I pray this ancient prayer I've learned as a child, I feel like God's cloak of protection embracing my entire being.

The effect was immediate. I called, and God answered me. He built up strength with me instantly. The negative feelings and thoughts slowly melted away and the sight of my kids helped me regain what I thought I've lost that morning - my purpose. How sweet it is whenever I hear them cry out "Teacher Trina!" Packed with tenderness and affection. Bursting with God's love. It fortifies me.

I do what I do because this is what I believe the Lord has called me to do. This is my ministry - kids. Hard to see through this at times but I just surrender to His will and carry on. I know He will surprise me beyond belief one of these days. I can feel it. It is coming.

"Good things come to those who wait." Mico's advice for me today. I'd like to believe so.

Ciao!