Lag

Okay, you have to shoot me now for not blogging for 3 days.

Quanti is killing me.

My cough and asthma are killing me.

Tons of schoolwork are waiting for me. Why have I become such a procrastinator?

I am so looking forward to summer. To my summer with Rye. I miss him.

Today, I drove. I didn't turn on the radio and was happy with the peace and quiet solitude brings. I found my "me" time at last. I missed driving alone... actually. During college, I felt so free and independent driving my own car, going places (well, not really far -- my routine was Home - UP - Home). Even if the terrible traffic and crappy drivers are all over the place, I used to love driving alone. These days, driving is a rare opportunity for me. Though sometimes, I dread holding the steering wheel again due to the long drive to and fro Antipolo, I loved it today. I had my own time. I decided where I was going. I felt autonomous. Haha. It's not typical of my life, you see. Yes, at 23. Not yet. There are times when I think about living on my own, so I may finally feel like an adult, who makes her own decisions, who pursues whatever she fancies, who can stand on her own two feet. But at this point, it seems like an unlikely plan. Though I want it, I don't think I'll survive.. financially, emotionally, physically. That's why for now, I just have to hold that thought and put that plan on hold.

I came from the Youth Prayer Meeting in San Carlos. Today, we marked the start of the YLSS season as it's Bring-a-Friend Day. Though I was in a grumpy and stressed mood when I alighted the car (because of the Spiritworks mishap), seeing the youth lightened me up in a snap. I calmed down as people started to greet me with their smiles that I felt guilty not to smile and not to be in a better mood. The Lord reassured me once again through Jill's prayers -- that I am worthy, beautiful, whole in His eyes. There are times when the green eyed monster in me would feed my insecurities, leaving me feeling bad. But the Lord has his way of getting me back. He is simply great.

Pending List:

@PTC Reports (Typical Day and Recommendations)
@Cog: Critique 2, Take home exam
@Quanti: Worksheet 7, Exam, Project 2
@AdvDev: Reporting and project, take home exam
@BLD: email tito my pic
@sleep earlier

I have to go now. My eyes are closing and I am typing wrong letters already which is not a good sign.

Ciao!