Sleep-Deprived

I am sleep-deprived these days.

Even if I desire to sleep, I just couldn't.

Even if I didn't drink coffee tonight, my mind remains restless and my eyes won't shut.

I guess I just have a lot on my mind right now. School. Exams. Projects. Preschool. Moving up. Community. YLSS. Politics. Politics in Community. Strict rules.

Yes, rules.

I've never been the rebellious type who enjoys breaking rules. I was brought up to be the conscientious kid who do not break rules. Going against what is said to be right makes my tummy queasy. I went with the flow. I followed. I did not question. I repressed the thought if I found the rule going against my views. I didn't assert myself whatsoever. I didn't speak up.

I was the good girl according to how parents define it.

There is really nothing wrong with being a good girl. But more than that, I was passive. I lacked initiative. I was a push-over.

Now, I realize that I should speak up. Take action. Stand my ground. It's time that I step up. It's time to make a difference.

Yes, I will make a difference.

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I am so looking forward to summer...

Countdown Update:

5 weekdays 'til Moving Up Day

10 weekdays 'til my last exam in Masters,

24 days before I visit Rye!!!!!!

62 days before I visit Rye again... with Mico.

74 days before PALAWAN!


This entry do not make a lot of sense. Haha.

Forgive me.

Ciao!